Long-roof Alpina for your time.
Hope everyone's still doing good during these unprecedented times(tm).
Things aren't bad, just got paid my year-end incentives (yay), but the promotion I asked for a few months back as a counter-offer didn't go through yet. They said they are aiming for next month "pending a market research by HR to try to get me a better rate". They did however made me a team lead now since our team is expanding, now I'm leading a few guys.
Only problem here now is I'm having a serious case of impostor's syndrome here, getting a bit fearful on what might come. Looking back, it felt like a flash. It wasn't that long ago I was still on Kinja writing a post venting about getting let go, and in just 2 years I've switched disciplines and leading some projects now. Not exactly small ones either, we're talking datacenter migration type of projects. Deep down though I still have a voice telling me I'm not quite cut for it yet. i just gotta find a way to deal with it, I guess, but it just feels like I'm about to lose control of things violently.
Really hope that promotion gets through though, at least it gives me a bit more comfort that my income is back to where it used to be. Part of me is still beating myself over wasting 10 years at my previous job and letting myself go stale, it feels a bit like redemption.