Making friends as an adult is hard. And there's lots of studies/articles on how it's becoming especially hard for men.
It doesn't seem to matter what you're into it's difficult. It's like the only acceptable activities to gather for are drinking and sports. And even then good luck getting the friendship past those activities.
On the bright side, the internet at least gives us refuges like Oppo. It's not the same as in person interaction, but it also not nothing.
And do not feel bad about crying. It's just a normal response to some emotions. Emotions that it's completely normal to feel. It's taken me years to finally get to where I'm physically capable of crying after spending most of my life avoiding it to the point where I couldn't.
It's part of why I openly share that I went for a very emotional and tear filled 2am drive just one week after my daughter was born. When the difficulty of a newborn drove me to my emotional breaking point. Some situations just call for it as a response, and there's nothing un-manly about it.