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@rallydarkstrike said in Draft About menu:

@chariotoflove Only just noticed this, sorry! This looks fine to me!

Thanks! And I want to get this up and running. I’ll ping Jacob to do it when the linked posts are a little more mature.

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These are great and yes this is where you put them.

I don’t know the story behind the hour rule, but someone must.

@sony1492 You are depressed -- and I mean this as nicely as possible, but fk whichever family member it was with that clapback "my life was harder" bullshit.

My parents are rather understanding, but only a couple months ago did I have a bit more thorough review of my history with depression and they almooooost went down the path of "well, when my life was hard, yeah, I was sad, but I got over it" logic. I reassured them that a hard life has nothing to do with depression. It's not my first tango with them on the subject, but I feel like this most recent conversation with them had a bit more staying power.

Anyway, back to depression. There's no guarantee that getting that better job, landing in a better position, or moving out will improve your mental situation. There's no magic formula for depression. It's a slog with potential russian roulette consistency.

Why I say the above is simply to guard against being even harder on yourself later after you make improvements in your life yet still having moments of depression. But you will improve. You fucking will improve. But that doesn't mean you won't still have nights where you're just internally cursing yourself while lounging in your new living room.

But there can be ways to reduce the frequency or intensity of depressive episodes. For me, it's just taken a lot of self awareness, and actually a bit of selfishness. Stop gauging yourself against what you think you 'should' be doing or how you 'should' be acting. I've become a bit of a mole, but I'm happier this way. C'est la vie. I have a lot more legitimate energy and care for the people I do engage with, even though the quantity is vastly reduced. Who cares? You are, in the end, the only person keeping you alive. So just take care of you.